House arrest (A Degrassi rant)

Some of you may know that I watch this show called Degrassi. It's in it's 10th season and while I still like the show, I noticed there were an ass-load of plotholes. So, here I am and I'm gonna friggin' rant about it.

Let's talk about plotholes...

• Towards the beginning of the season, Clare gets lasik eye surgery. People assume she's gotten her boobs done. That stupid slutfaced Jenna hears about this and tells Clare off about not loving her body the way God intended. So, if Jenna is all about being at peace with your body... How come this bitch ends up taking diet pills because she starts to get fat?
• In season 9, Jenna McSlutfaced Whoreson steals Clare's boyfriend, K.C. Alli is Clare's best friend and is pissed about Jenna double-crossing her. She gets pissed again when Jenna accuses Clare of getting plastic surgery. Somewhere in the season, Alli actually starts to hang out with and talk to Jenna, without any real reconciliation. What?
• Another thing about Jenna is that she ends up being PREGGERS by her boyfriend, K.C. Uh... what? We never ever hear about them being sexually active until this. Usually when a relationship is consummated on Degrassi there is a scene or some kind of allusion to the act. 
• Drew is the new big man on campus. He's supposed to be hot or some shit. He also wants to be the new quarterback at Degrassi. These are both titles held by Riley. It comes to light that Riley is a closeted gay boy. Drew uses this information to blackmail Riley. Okay, fine. Then it's revealed that Drew's brother is a transgendered female. Okay, fine. Thing is.. Drew is actually really accepting of his brother. So wait, he doesn't like gay guys, but he embraces the transgendered?
• Wesley is this dorky kid who can never catch a break... So I guess I shouldn't be surprised when I noticed that he's wearing two casts. One on each broken arm. Problem is... I DON'T FUCKING REMEMBER HIM BREAKING HIS ARMS.
• This isn't really a plothole but I have two names for you. Sav and Holly J. For those of you who don't know, Sav is a bumbling idiot who used to be in a rock band and can't hold onto a good girlfriend because he's an IDIOT and because he's scared of his strict Indian mommy and daddy. Holly J is a former stuck-up rich bitch who turns out to be a really awesome, if not overly ambitious chick. In season 9 she is class/school president and does a damn good job of it. She's made to be a leader. In season 10, Sav's dumbass decides to run for school president after finding out that he's kinda popular. Either way, he friggin' wins because people think he got his then-girlfriend pregnant or whatever and then he realizes he's in WAY over his head because he has ZERO leadership skills. So then Holly J becomes the vice president by default and she helps him out with his president shit. Turns out Sav thinks Holly J is a hot piece of NOT Indian ass and is all like, "Hey, I like you. You make me bashful and shit. Let's go out." Holly J, who had just broken up with douchebaggish (but still loveable) Declan, of course declines much to our joy... But Sav keeps it up and Holly J caves after they make a deal that whatever romantic crap happens between them ends after graduation. WHAT?!? It doesn't make sense... AT ALL.

So that's my rant. Regularly scheduled blogging shall continue shortly...

~C.M.

I fake rocked your world

Today, was such a more awesome day that yesterday. I went to a friend's house and just chilled, basically. The weather today was also pretty good. I was outside earlier and it felt amazing. I love, love, love it when it's like 80-65 degrees outside. Maybe I should move somewhere with a more stable and agreeable climate? Ha.

Yeah, I just want to briefly mention how I kind of like being an online recluse. I've basically shrank away from Facebook, only posting sparingly and have dropped Twitter completely. I was also not signing in to Yahoo! Messenger for awhile, but have since picked that back up. I perhaps haven't left social-networking for the best reasons, but it's been kind of nice. I do miss knowing what my friends are up to, but it also pushes me to actually keep up with the people I care about. Also, it's given me time to work on some hobbies, and get some of the things done on my to-do list, which... makes me feel good. LAME! Ha. Ah, that reminds me... since I'm not taking French this semester I need to remember to brush up on it now and then, so remind me, will you?

So, recently I made a list of the movies that I want to watch in the near future. I didn't include Easy A, but I totally should have. I saw the trailer a few days ago and I predict that this will be one of my new favorite movies. It reminds me a lot of Mean Girls, but in a raunchier, not as silly way. Emma Stone seems to be perfectly cast. She's sexy, but can still pull off the-girl-next-door/nerd kind of thing. I absolutely love her delivery of the witty lines written for her character, Olive. Also, Olive... how much cuter of a name could they have picked? The accompanying website, LetsNotAndSayWeDid.com has some fun features that you might want to go check out if you've run out of things to do on the computer. I can't wait until September 17th to watch it! Feel free to join me. :D

~C.M. 

My missing puzzle piece

I had an awesome day today. :) I really did. I got to hang out with just my mom. After I had class we went downtown to walk around. We had lunch at Which Wich, nomnomnom. We also passed by where they're filming for a TV show here in town, so that was pretty fun too. To make the day even better... it was under 80 degrees for most of the morning and early afternoon. AH-MAZING. It was all gloomy and rainy. Ugh, perfect weather. I love it.

I'm in a good mood also because I bought Katy Perry's new album today for about $12. :)

It's cotton-candy scented! I'm so not lying to you. Albeit, it smells like a hokey, fake cotton-candy, but it's still scented. I've listened to most of the songs and I like the bulk of them. :D Apparently there are two hidden tracks on my version which are remixes of Teenage Dream and California Gurls. Neither one of them is particularly good, but I'm happy that I got 14 tracks for less than a dollar each, and hell do I love me some cheap music. One other grievance though is that the album art inside is really boring. It's just Katy against a dark background wearing candy-inspired stuff, nothing fancy or really that fun, but it's all good. I do like that the title isn't on the front. It reminds me of record album art a lot, which is totally a plus.

I've compiled a to-do list and I plan to stick to it. I've already completed a few things which... sadly, makes me happy. I think I'll write a to-do list for every week. Yeah... that'll show 'em... I mean...

So, I have some YouTube videos planned and once they're filmed and uploaded I will tell you about it, don't worry about that. For now, I shall listen to some damn Ke$ha and drink some pineapple orange juice like a mofo.

~C.M.

The future freaks me out

Learning to be alone, to be by myself, has been a harrowing and daunting experience so far. There are times when I am at peace with being alone... and of course there are times when I absolutely hate it. I've realized that I'm just scared. My future, my plans... they're fuzzy now. What I once saw so clearly is now so blurry I can't even make it out. What on earth do I do now? What do I want? I'm scared of what the future holds. Maybe I'm going through a bit of a quarter-life crisis. I should be thankful for all of my experiences and all of my mistakes. I should be growing up. I should be accepting of things as they are and stop trying to fix mistakes I never made by running memories over and over in my head.

I've also realized that I always do this when my heart is broken. I always run and hide. I'm still trying to figure out if this is the best method for me... or if I should finally learn to confront all of my problems in life. A lot of times I think that my heart is the smart organ... it's my head that needs to catch up. I remember... when I was about 9, my parents were going through a rough patch. The school counselor pulled me out of class by my mother's request. The counselor talked to me... She said things I didn't really understand, but she assured me that this wasn't my fault and that my parents loved me. What the hell was she talking about? What was this? Immediately after, as I was walking back to class, I saw my mother's friend and co-worker in the hallway. I can't remember what she asked me... but I ran up to her, hugged her and began to cry. My heart knew it. My head didn't understand. My heart knew that my parents were seriously contemplating divorce. To this day, it still baffles me how one part of me saw the truth when the other, typically more rational part of me didn't.

I'm in pain. There is no question about that. I miss him. I wish he would contact me. But, I am learning to take things as they are. I'm learning to let things work out how they will. I need to stop trying to control things, because most things are completely out of my control. I liken this to vomiting. Gross, I know, but stay with me. I hate throwing-up. I always have. I will do everything to avoid it, even though that I know that once I do throw-up I will feel better. The retching, the pain in my throat doesn't seem worth it prior to doing it until the relief afterwards. This pain I'm in now. These tears that fall. They will be worth it when everything is okay. When I'm okay. I can't be scared of the future forever, and I won't be.

~C.M.